- My family would mentally abuse me because I was different. The only thing I would do is cry or ignore everything, or at least try to. I learned to be passive with every situation when it came to my family.
- Depression was the death of me and that's all I can say that's how I can remember living. When you have no hope in your life you don't want to live. In my mind, I always thought there was no point. There was nothing to live for or nothing to lose.
- Loneliness was my only companion.
- I had no idea where I mattered. I didn't understand why I was put on this earth for. Life to me was only through my understanding. I never understood why anything happened: why did I suffer as much as I did.
Now:
- God is my life. The moment I accepted Christ as my savior, I am more aware of my sins. I am more aware of how to handle things on this earth.
- I'm hungry and thirsty for Christ.
- I'm not as anxious as I use to be. Honestly that's a big thing.
- I trust God
- I'm learning how to handle situation and not feel alone because
God has been working through me this whole time and I'm at awe for everything that he's done for me. I'm beginning to understand the reasons why I go through life struggles. He's been calling me. For many years I've been in deep depression and all I felt was darkness. I felt trapped and hopeless. I can't really explain how great it feels to be a slave of Christ. Don't get me wrong, it's not always rainbows and butterflies but it's a lot easier to handle. I have hope. I have God.
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