25. Baptism

A year ago today, was an act of obedience. 

Four years ago in November, I denied myself to follow Christ. 

Exactly a year ago, I was baptized. I remember how excited I was. I don't remember why but just being obedient to the Lord's command was good enough for me. In a year... God has been working in my life and let me tell you I wasn't always up for it. I had to really deny my selfish desires and really trust in the Lord because we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose. (Romans 8:28) 

There are so many things in life that happens and it gets you really anxious and tired. Find comfort and rest in the Lord. Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. (Proverbs 3:5) 

But more importantly, what I've learned so far an still learning is how to evangelize and disciple. Because God's command is so great you can't deny him Go therefore and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe all that I have commanded you. And behold, I am with you always, to the end of the age.” (Matthew 28:19-20) 

24. Wedding Day

It didn't occur to me that a year ago today would've been my one year anniversary. I've been getting a lot of "are you okay" or "do you miss him" you know the usual questions... 

I am grateful. I'm relieved and humbled by everything that happened last year. I've learned a lot more than I could ever imagine. You see the thing is, what I've learned on my own was what I wanted to learn with Nehi. God had other plans. He made me realize the only one I should depend, rely on, and trust is Him. God is the ultimate provider and protector. 

A lot has changed. A lot of tears and mourning. A lot of transformation. More importantly a lot of growth. 

It was great learning about the roles of a husband and wife though. Now that I know how to really look in a godly man and it's been interesting. Not that I'm dating or looking it's more of a realization.  

But more importantly, just focus on your relationship with God. There's no other relationship worth keeping and worth fighting for. God has something greater for me and I can't even grasp. For now I enjoy serving my church and serving others around me. More than anything, serving the Lord. 

God knows and has planned everything way before you were born. For his purpose and glory. When you're faced with trials, God is testing you on your saving faith. Even though he already knows, you have to know where you stand in Christ. It's a great confirmation when you walk with Christ after all the trials. 

I feel like I just wrote a bunch of stuff with no actual key message. Love yourself but always love the Lord. Don't fall into the idea of "Happily Ever After" because God is more than that. He will always be faithful and will provide you with wisdom and strength. 

23. Happy Father's Day

So I’m meeting my dad’s side of the family for the first time… Knowing that I’m a part of their family. It’s been a year since I was told who my real dad was. It was the most painful and relieving news I’ve heard. It has changed my life and I for one wouldn’t know how to handle it if God didn’t allow me to. I’m a little nervous but more importantly I just hope I don’t become bitter. I’ve forgiven everyone especially my parents but you know sometimes you figure out yourself you haven’t truly forgiven when you have a conversation and you find yourself clenching your fist. I won’t be meeting my real dad but I do get to spend some time with my DAD the one who raised me. I was never mad at him when he didn’t want to tell me. Not that he didn’t want to he was just protecting me, guarding my heart because he knew what kind of an emotional wreck I was, still am but not as much. He’s a very kind and strong father. Even though we have nothing in common, I know he values a promise and his children. I’m not even his child he took me as his own. I know tomorrow’s Father’s Day but you should always appreciate your dads or any man who’s been a father figure in your life. Tell him you love him, and you are grateful. Remember who loves you more though, God the Father. For no one will ever love you more than Him.

Oh give thanks to the Lord, for he is good; for his steadfast love endures forever!

1 Chronicles 16:34