I had a draft that said 2019...
I think it's just a continuation I couldn't finish last year. The year of 2019 I had many opportunities to test my limits. Like any other year, we try to see what we can really do with our set goals. I for one, thought it had something to do with ministry in the church.
I was getting to know everyone from another church I wasn't a full member yet. Learning how to disciple and care for others. Growing my faith in the Lord has been an enduring journey. Went to the Philippines to serve the churches who've been spreading the gospel there. Shared the gospel to my father who does not know Christ. Later on the summer I became a full member of Grace Church. It has been a very busy time in my life. So busy I didn't realize it.
I've been serving the church way more than I ever did in Santa Monica Church. It's almost about the same thing to me. At one point I thought I was going to be a missionary in the Philippines.
All of that side notes does not really seem to make sense. Nor does my pattern anymore. I haven't been writing. I haven't been thinking to where I can create something out of nothing. I've been stuck in circles. I'm constantly moving. Constantly giving my 100% to see that I didn't really have to.
I'm always wondering why my dad is the way that he is. He's been drinking and all I can do is ask why are you drinking? He says it's because he can't sleep. So he drinks to sleep but in reality he just doesn't know how to cope. He doesn't know how to deal with all that he's done. The last thing I told him when I went to the Philippines with my team was "There's no amount of "good" work you can do to outdo your past. Especially without Christ"
I'm just sadden by all of this. I began to wonder if that's the reason why I'm so anxious all the time. Why I'm always heartbroken. I'm not dead in my sin anymore but there are times I wonder if the reason why I have all these issues was because of my parents? Their lack of communication or cowardice mindset... their fear of being a burden... That's ALL IN MY HEAD!
It's a sobering moment where everything that I have and am is in Christ.
A voice in my head "Remember Christ's love!" God has ordained all of this and it's to not know why things are happening the way that they are. It's not slipping in the cracks. I'm meant to know this so I can rejoice and give praise to the Lord and know HE is GOD. That all my worries and shortcomings aren't things I should dwell on. These "traits" are not my identity. But God. I am saved from all these fears to be a reality. I'm not dismissing that fear is not a real thing. What I am stating is this. Fear should not be a permanent roommate anymore. I would like fear to be an unwanted solicitor on my door. Even then I know fear will come back. knock on my door and say I know you need this.
But I don't. If this is a way for me to come closer to God I'm all for it. But fear is not welcome here for a long period of time. Not anymore.
2020 is about moving forward not run away
2020 is about making good habits not cowering in comfort
2020 is about taking my time and not burning out
2020 is about God not me
Friday, February 7, 2020
Monday, January 22, 2018
36. My Past
I feel like I've written something like this before. Something about the past haunting you. The devil reminding you of all the sins you've ever done...
I've learned in the past 4 years about how Jesus took all of our sins. That He's forgiven my past, present and future. I've learned to love myself by loving Him first. Loving Him before others.
I regret everything that I've done. I am ashamed. The devil will always try to use that against me.
When you're new to a church and no one really knows who you were before you became a believer you sometimes forget.
You forget how God took you out of the darkness.
I've been serving and desiring God ever since I knew I was heading nowhere but hell. I didn't care about what people thought of me anymore. I just wanted to please the Lord. I started going to a new church and everyone saw how I love the Lord.
Now that someone new has come to my life and pursues me, as a body of Christ they will intervene and make sure that I know to be cautious. Because of his past. Although it wasn't as bad as mine, yes it was sinful. Praise God He didn't allow it to happen for him.
He was honest. I couldn't help but cry because who's to say he shouldn't be more cautious of me?
If they knew would they make the same remarks about me?
I cried and cried because there's nothing I can do to take it back.
But by the grace of God, Jesus washed it away. The old me is dead and God gave me life.
When Jesus asks Peter "Do you love me" Three times. and in Peter said yes...
Even after Peter denied Jesus. Jesus still wanted him.
I am reminded that Jesus still wants me.
I feared for the longest time that I would push those who wanted to care for me because I didn't deserve to love anyone or others loving me. I had it set in my brain that if it was in the Lord's will for me to be single for the rest of my life I am very content with it.
I didn't want to hurt anyone. Like how I hurt the last person I thought I would never hurt.
God allows us to grow in different times in our lives. God has given us different paths. But all to glorify Him is our purpose.
The devil will always remind you of your sins. He will always try to tell you that because of your brokenness God cannot use you.
But God will use your brokenness to glorify Him. We have a God who wants YOU, in spite of what you've ever done. That is grace. There's nothing to great or to small that God will not take care of.
For Jesus said "it is finished."
I've learned in the past 4 years about how Jesus took all of our sins. That He's forgiven my past, present and future. I've learned to love myself by loving Him first. Loving Him before others.
I regret everything that I've done. I am ashamed. The devil will always try to use that against me.
When you're new to a church and no one really knows who you were before you became a believer you sometimes forget.
You forget how God took you out of the darkness.
I've been serving and desiring God ever since I knew I was heading nowhere but hell. I didn't care about what people thought of me anymore. I just wanted to please the Lord. I started going to a new church and everyone saw how I love the Lord.
Now that someone new has come to my life and pursues me, as a body of Christ they will intervene and make sure that I know to be cautious. Because of his past. Although it wasn't as bad as mine, yes it was sinful. Praise God He didn't allow it to happen for him.
He was honest. I couldn't help but cry because who's to say he shouldn't be more cautious of me?
If they knew would they make the same remarks about me?
I cried and cried because there's nothing I can do to take it back.
But by the grace of God, Jesus washed it away. The old me is dead and God gave me life.
When Jesus asks Peter "Do you love me" Three times. and in Peter said yes...
Even after Peter denied Jesus. Jesus still wanted him.
I am reminded that Jesus still wants me.
I feared for the longest time that I would push those who wanted to care for me because I didn't deserve to love anyone or others loving me. I had it set in my brain that if it was in the Lord's will for me to be single for the rest of my life I am very content with it.
I didn't want to hurt anyone. Like how I hurt the last person I thought I would never hurt.
God allows us to grow in different times in our lives. God has given us different paths. But all to glorify Him is our purpose.
The devil will always remind you of your sins. He will always try to tell you that because of your brokenness God cannot use you.
But God will use your brokenness to glorify Him. We have a God who wants YOU, in spite of what you've ever done. That is grace. There's nothing to great or to small that God will not take care of.
For Jesus said "it is finished."
Monday, April 17, 2017
35. Dear Papa
Dear Papa,
We finally met after 25 years. Didn't know you existed until two years ago. In the beginning of 2017 I got on the plane and met you. I didn't think it would change my life but it really did. It helped me see where I got my little personalities and hobbies. Meeting not only you but the rest of the family that made me really feel like I belong somewhere. Let me tell you it wasn't easy for me to leave. We both thought about me finishing school after my three year break. I was going to move and live with you while I finish school. It was an amazing idea you know? Finally had the time to finish school and start a whole new life. To even think to live a new life with you would be amazing. Little did I know it was going to take more of me to stay or go. Two months. Two months passed and every single day I couldn't sleep for reasons I'm still not sure of. I thought about it day and night. I thought about you, my mom, my step dad, all of my siblings, my friends, and my life.... None of this made any sense.
I decided to stay in the states to continue my life here. Not because of comfort but to just really live the way I know God wanted me to live... Trusting Him. I knew deep down that I would depend on you more than I should. I would depend on you more than God. I can't fall into that temptation. Yes you are my father and I do love you but I can't replace God for the mere idea of being comfortable for a short period of time.
I wanted to run away from my mom and all the drama that was going on. I needed to make sure you weren't filling the void that my family didn't give me. I told you I felt alone most of my life. That no one ever supported me when it came to the real deal. Again that's based off of a feeling that I shouldn't be feeling. It's okay to be loved but it can't be the sole purpose of me leaving everything behind.
We cannot make up for the lost years we could've spent but God had us meet years later. I would not want to take that away from your kids. I'm not saying you were going to stop loving them and providing for them because of me but you being there for them is something that they need. I'm an adult now who's passed all that. They need you more than I do right now.
I've started over many many times. Yes, that is what your 20's are about but being a part of a new church making new friends after making new friends in college and figuring out life to only do it again in the Philippines... I'm tired of changing. I think for once it would be okay to stay, That is a new adventure, staying.
It was very difficult for me to choose the Philippines over US. In all honesty I felt like it was choosing over things way more than a destination. You vs. Mom or staying because I was tired of a routine vs. running for comfort or me vs. God. This might not all make sense but there's a reason why things happen the way they do. God just won't say just yet. All I know is that there is something greater than right now. I know everything will be okay. Months or even days from now it'll be better.
I love you so much and I'll be back soon. Thank you for being you and letting me see who you really are. A man who made mistakes just like everyone else who is trying to make up for it. A man who loves his family more than anything. A man who is my father.
Love,
Lyn
We finally met after 25 years. Didn't know you existed until two years ago. In the beginning of 2017 I got on the plane and met you. I didn't think it would change my life but it really did. It helped me see where I got my little personalities and hobbies. Meeting not only you but the rest of the family that made me really feel like I belong somewhere. Let me tell you it wasn't easy for me to leave. We both thought about me finishing school after my three year break. I was going to move and live with you while I finish school. It was an amazing idea you know? Finally had the time to finish school and start a whole new life. To even think to live a new life with you would be amazing. Little did I know it was going to take more of me to stay or go. Two months. Two months passed and every single day I couldn't sleep for reasons I'm still not sure of. I thought about it day and night. I thought about you, my mom, my step dad, all of my siblings, my friends, and my life.... None of this made any sense.
I decided to stay in the states to continue my life here. Not because of comfort but to just really live the way I know God wanted me to live... Trusting Him. I knew deep down that I would depend on you more than I should. I would depend on you more than God. I can't fall into that temptation. Yes you are my father and I do love you but I can't replace God for the mere idea of being comfortable for a short period of time.
I wanted to run away from my mom and all the drama that was going on. I needed to make sure you weren't filling the void that my family didn't give me. I told you I felt alone most of my life. That no one ever supported me when it came to the real deal. Again that's based off of a feeling that I shouldn't be feeling. It's okay to be loved but it can't be the sole purpose of me leaving everything behind.
We cannot make up for the lost years we could've spent but God had us meet years later. I would not want to take that away from your kids. I'm not saying you were going to stop loving them and providing for them because of me but you being there for them is something that they need. I'm an adult now who's passed all that. They need you more than I do right now.
I've started over many many times. Yes, that is what your 20's are about but being a part of a new church making new friends after making new friends in college and figuring out life to only do it again in the Philippines... I'm tired of changing. I think for once it would be okay to stay, That is a new adventure, staying.
It was very difficult for me to choose the Philippines over US. In all honesty I felt like it was choosing over things way more than a destination. You vs. Mom or staying because I was tired of a routine vs. running for comfort or me vs. God. This might not all make sense but there's a reason why things happen the way they do. God just won't say just yet. All I know is that there is something greater than right now. I know everything will be okay. Months or even days from now it'll be better.
I love you so much and I'll be back soon. Thank you for being you and letting me see who you really are. A man who made mistakes just like everyone else who is trying to make up for it. A man who loves his family more than anything. A man who is my father.
Love,
Lyn
Saturday, October 1, 2016
34. Chaotic Mind
You know the devil has the worst timing for you but best timing for him. I thought I had everything figured out... Which in all honesty no one ever really does. That's what your 20s are about right? In your 20s you find out who you are and what your purpose is in life. Half the time I just walk blindly because I'm to afraid to admit that I have no idea what's next. I have no idea what to do. I have no idea how to feel. For the longest time I've been trying to figure out where my identity lies. Now as a Christian I should be content that my identity lies in Christ.
Half the time I don't know what's going on. I'm at a bible study and we're on 2 Samuel talking about how God made a promise to David that he would be king. The point is that God keeps his promises. His promise to me is eternal life with him after this life... What about right now? What should I be doing now? How or what do I do to glorify God now?
Then I think about my music. How am I glorifying God? My music is about self empowerment, love, and sorrow... It's changing now but I honestly don't see myself going any further. It's so discouraging because that's all I want to do. That was my goal ever since I picked up a guitar and realized that this is what I'm good at.
Looking at my life right now. I work in an office. Scanning papers and checking other people's mistakes, Do not get me wrong I am grateful for this job that I have right now. I'm no longer taking care of other people's babies. But as I look on my Facebook feed and see that everyone who I grew up with is successful. Successful in terms that they're doing what they planned to be at this age.
Six years later I haven't found the thing I really want to pursue other than music but it doesn't look like it's going anywhere. Is this not what God wants? Am I not suppose to write music and perform? Sometimes I wish I knew. That way I can stop now or keep pushing. Do I go back to school and finish so that I can teach music?
There are times I tend to forget that I grew up thinking that only thing to make me happy is to do what makes me happy... Not to say that God is taking that from me. What I'm trying to say is, I don't know what would make me happy in a long run. Sometimes you think you do but it turns out that God knows more than you can ever imagine. It's hard to believe sometimes because I'm use to making myself feel better. I think I'm in control of everything around me (which is totally not true) so that the only person I can blame is myself. I don't blame God that I'm not where I want to be. I'm upset because I can't seem to be content and grateful with the blessings God has given me.
I need to trust in the Lord more and not compare myself to other people. Success is not about the fancy car a house, or a lot of money. I just want to be content with where I am. This selfish desire of knowing that I'll be okay just drives me to sin even more. I end up complaining, get depressed and then I find myself giving up again. I think I'm crazy half the time because I find it difficult to know what I want. Then I forget that I haven't even prayed about it.
Transitions are hard. Especially when you don't know you're ready for them.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him. and he will make straight your path.
Proverbs 3:5
And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose
Romans 8:28
But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness and all these things will be added to you. Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself, sufficient for the day is its own trouble.
Matthew 6:33
Thank you for reading.
Half the time I don't know what's going on. I'm at a bible study and we're on 2 Samuel talking about how God made a promise to David that he would be king. The point is that God keeps his promises. His promise to me is eternal life with him after this life... What about right now? What should I be doing now? How or what do I do to glorify God now?
Then I think about my music. How am I glorifying God? My music is about self empowerment, love, and sorrow... It's changing now but I honestly don't see myself going any further. It's so discouraging because that's all I want to do. That was my goal ever since I picked up a guitar and realized that this is what I'm good at.
Looking at my life right now. I work in an office. Scanning papers and checking other people's mistakes, Do not get me wrong I am grateful for this job that I have right now. I'm no longer taking care of other people's babies. But as I look on my Facebook feed and see that everyone who I grew up with is successful. Successful in terms that they're doing what they planned to be at this age.
Six years later I haven't found the thing I really want to pursue other than music but it doesn't look like it's going anywhere. Is this not what God wants? Am I not suppose to write music and perform? Sometimes I wish I knew. That way I can stop now or keep pushing. Do I go back to school and finish so that I can teach music?
There are times I tend to forget that I grew up thinking that only thing to make me happy is to do what makes me happy... Not to say that God is taking that from me. What I'm trying to say is, I don't know what would make me happy in a long run. Sometimes you think you do but it turns out that God knows more than you can ever imagine. It's hard to believe sometimes because I'm use to making myself feel better. I think I'm in control of everything around me (which is totally not true) so that the only person I can blame is myself. I don't blame God that I'm not where I want to be. I'm upset because I can't seem to be content and grateful with the blessings God has given me.
I need to trust in the Lord more and not compare myself to other people. Success is not about the fancy car a house, or a lot of money. I just want to be content with where I am. This selfish desire of knowing that I'll be okay just drives me to sin even more. I end up complaining, get depressed and then I find myself giving up again. I think I'm crazy half the time because I find it difficult to know what I want. Then I forget that I haven't even prayed about it.
Transitions are hard. Especially when you don't know you're ready for them.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him. and he will make straight your path.
Proverbs 3:5
And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose
Romans 8:28
But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness and all these things will be added to you. Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself, sufficient for the day is its own trouble.
Matthew 6:33
Thank you for reading.
Tuesday, September 6, 2016
33. New York. . . Kinda
For the very first time this girl went to her dream city, New York. I never thought the day would come where I would fly out there. I've watched all the movies and shows about New York it literally was a dream come true. The Lord definitely provided. A couple months before my friend and I finalized the New York trip, I've been worried and shaken about life. (That seems to happen a lot) I felt like I was in cycle of depression I couldn't find myself out of it no matter how many times I thought I had complete faith in God. I had a huge conversation with my friend Omelia about my depression and anxiety. That conversation wasn't even on the agenda of conversations. I didn't want to admit that I was struggling with anything. I didn't want to look like I was always complaining because I was never satisfied with where I am in life. All in all I was just discouraged because I didn't know if I was glorifying the Lord the way that I should. I stopped reading at one point. I also stopped talking to my church family. Even though I was there I wasn't really there. My mind was always wondering but I was always convicted from not trusting God enough. I wanted to be numb because I was tired of feeling lost.
One thing that she told me was how sometimes the biggest question I can ask God is for strength to admit I need help. Sometimes it requires strength to even pray. I needed more help with getting up and walking than the actual direction of where to go. A huge weight was lifted off my shoulders the moment she said that. I finally had the courage to ask for comfort and grace to move even in the slightest way. Next thing I knew God woke me up the next day, ready. Ready for the world. I started working out, fixed my resume . . . started to fix my life. It wasn't a huge change it was a small change that made a actual impact. I'm going to move back with my parents in about two weeks. Never thought I would do that again. I think it's God's way of saying that I've been away long enough and I need to be a light to my family now.
About New York. . . I know it's the title of this blog but it's all adding up to this point here. Flying to New York is almost the best thing that has ever happened to me so far. It was always a dream of mine to visit and also to live there. But more on that later. I felt so at home and peaceful even though it's not a peaceful city it was peaceful none the less. God's timing is perfect and I tend to forget that. I forget that God is sovereign. I forget God cares and loves His children. The trip couldn't be anymore perfect. Not because of the sights but how God is not limited by anyone or anything. From this trip I've learned how he takes care of his children and blesses them. It takes a lot of strength to move forward. Even more strength to admit failure and you're needed of a savior.
One thing that she told me was how sometimes the biggest question I can ask God is for strength to admit I need help. Sometimes it requires strength to even pray. I needed more help with getting up and walking than the actual direction of where to go. A huge weight was lifted off my shoulders the moment she said that. I finally had the courage to ask for comfort and grace to move even in the slightest way. Next thing I knew God woke me up the next day, ready. Ready for the world. I started working out, fixed my resume . . . started to fix my life. It wasn't a huge change it was a small change that made a actual impact. I'm going to move back with my parents in about two weeks. Never thought I would do that again. I think it's God's way of saying that I've been away long enough and I need to be a light to my family now.
About New York. . . I know it's the title of this blog but it's all adding up to this point here. Flying to New York is almost the best thing that has ever happened to me so far. It was always a dream of mine to visit and also to live there. But more on that later. I felt so at home and peaceful even though it's not a peaceful city it was peaceful none the less. God's timing is perfect and I tend to forget that. I forget that God is sovereign. I forget God cares and loves His children. The trip couldn't be anymore perfect. Not because of the sights but how God is not limited by anyone or anything. From this trip I've learned how he takes care of his children and blesses them. It takes a lot of strength to move forward. Even more strength to admit failure and you're needed of a savior.
Monday, February 29, 2016
32. Forgiveness
I have to confess something... I'm still hurt with the lie my mom told me a few years ago. I don't think she knows the damage it has done to me. It's not even her fault... well I don't know. She should've told me from the beginning or at least when I asked her instead of making me feel horrible for asking. Because of all of that I guess I just felt this loneliness and bitterness towards any chance to talk to her. I never felt like I fit in anywhere and I never had the chance to see what love was.
I'm sure my mom made so many sacrifices for her children but why does she have to constantly remind me how ungrateful I am? The way she wants me to show her is by getting a job she demands me to have to love for her. The fact that she kept everything from me I feel like she just wanted to keep everything in the past.
Why am I so biter towards her? I'm sure I've done so many stupid things to her... I said sorry to her though agh. How can I be Christ like if I can't find it in my heart to forgive the person who I loved the most? She lied to me! I would've understood why I was such a lonely person and why I don't have anything in common with other people. I mean who does that? Whenever I would tell her how I feel..." you're so sensitive" That's because you have no idea how it feels to know the fact that you are alone.
The day I wanted to kill myself you didn't understand why. When I told you exactly what it was, all you did was say how bad of a mother you were and how I never appreciated you. I told you I couldn't live up to your expectations for me. I felt alone and depressed mainly because I had to fit in a family I obviously had nothing in common with. How do you connect with strangers? The puzzles never fit.
I wanted to die because I didn't know how to make you happy.
How do let 10 years of hurt go like that?
You try to remember so many people hurt Jesus.
Yet HE still LOVES you.
He died for your sins.
I don't know if I'll ever be like Christ when it comes to constantly forgiving my mom or asking for forgiveness from her. I pray that one day she'll understand why I've been hurting and I pray one day I'll understand why she had to lie to me. I pray for her salvation. I pray she finds peace even though she's in constant denial.
I'm sure my mom made so many sacrifices for her children but why does she have to constantly remind me how ungrateful I am? The way she wants me to show her is by getting a job she demands me to have to love for her. The fact that she kept everything from me I feel like she just wanted to keep everything in the past.
Why am I so biter towards her? I'm sure I've done so many stupid things to her... I said sorry to her though agh. How can I be Christ like if I can't find it in my heart to forgive the person who I loved the most? She lied to me! I would've understood why I was such a lonely person and why I don't have anything in common with other people. I mean who does that? Whenever I would tell her how I feel..." you're so sensitive" That's because you have no idea how it feels to know the fact that you are alone.
The day I wanted to kill myself you didn't understand why. When I told you exactly what it was, all you did was say how bad of a mother you were and how I never appreciated you. I told you I couldn't live up to your expectations for me. I felt alone and depressed mainly because I had to fit in a family I obviously had nothing in common with. How do you connect with strangers? The puzzles never fit.
I wanted to die because I didn't know how to make you happy.
How do let 10 years of hurt go like that?
You try to remember so many people hurt Jesus.
Yet HE still LOVES you.
He died for your sins.
I don't know if I'll ever be like Christ when it comes to constantly forgiving my mom or asking for forgiveness from her. I pray that one day she'll understand why I've been hurting and I pray one day I'll understand why she had to lie to me. I pray for her salvation. I pray she finds peace even though she's in constant denial.
31. 2016 So Far
It's been awhile since I wrote anything. Here's a quick update!
I've been teaching Sunday School with one kid at church which is pretty interesting. Using my daycare experience with the bible is really fun. We don't have many families to minister to in our church. If you guys would like to pray for families that would be great!
I've met 2 of my 2016 goals which is a good start.
1. Cafe Night Photography Exhibition
This past month I had a gallery opening at PIECES. Cafe Night was a pretty fun intense day. For a few months I took photos of the local cafes in Los Angeles. Every cafe had their own vibe and energy. After taking all the photos I learned how to print, matte, frame and install for the gallery. I prepared an "Open Mic for the event. I had my artist friends perform their original work. There was a lot of love and I couldn't be more satisfied. Praise God for that :)
2. Discipleship
I'm finally discipling someone. My pastor has been encouraging our church to do it. He's trying to equip everyone to teaching everyone so that whoever comes to our church we know how serve and teach others. Him we proclaim warning everyone and teaching everyone with all wisdom, that we may present everyone mature in Christ. Colossians 1:28 I mean other than the fact that it's required from us as a follower. I gotta tell you it was a little nerve wrecking at first but then something my pastor told me "this is to glorify God and not yourself or the other person." "commit this to prayer"
Next 2 of my 2016 goals
3. plan trip to the Philippines
It's actually in the works right now. I'm planning my trip to the Philippines in the summer. Why am I going? Well I think it's about time to have a vacation haha. Main reason why I'm going is to meet my biological father for the first time. Quick update on that, I recently found out that I had a different father and so it took me awhile to accept and move forward from that. God's grace he's given me the strength to move forward and talk to my biological father and half sister from the Philippines. Lord willing I will be gone for 2 months and will be back safe. I'll keep you all updated with that!
4. Driver's license
It'e been a long time coming haha
Oh there's this guy...
to be continued :)
I've been teaching Sunday School with one kid at church which is pretty interesting. Using my daycare experience with the bible is really fun. We don't have many families to minister to in our church. If you guys would like to pray for families that would be great!
I've met 2 of my 2016 goals which is a good start.
1. Cafe Night Photography Exhibition
This past month I had a gallery opening at PIECES. Cafe Night was a pretty fun intense day. For a few months I took photos of the local cafes in Los Angeles. Every cafe had their own vibe and energy. After taking all the photos I learned how to print, matte, frame and install for the gallery. I prepared an "Open Mic for the event. I had my artist friends perform their original work. There was a lot of love and I couldn't be more satisfied. Praise God for that :)
2. Discipleship
I'm finally discipling someone. My pastor has been encouraging our church to do it. He's trying to equip everyone to teaching everyone so that whoever comes to our church we know how serve and teach others. Him we proclaim warning everyone and teaching everyone with all wisdom, that we may present everyone mature in Christ. Colossians 1:28 I mean other than the fact that it's required from us as a follower. I gotta tell you it was a little nerve wrecking at first but then something my pastor told me "this is to glorify God and not yourself or the other person." "commit this to prayer"
Next 2 of my 2016 goals
3. plan trip to the Philippines
It's actually in the works right now. I'm planning my trip to the Philippines in the summer. Why am I going? Well I think it's about time to have a vacation haha. Main reason why I'm going is to meet my biological father for the first time. Quick update on that, I recently found out that I had a different father and so it took me awhile to accept and move forward from that. God's grace he's given me the strength to move forward and talk to my biological father and half sister from the Philippines. Lord willing I will be gone for 2 months and will be back safe. I'll keep you all updated with that!
4. Driver's license
It'e been a long time coming haha
Oh there's this guy...
to be continued :)
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