College! Something that parents and teachers throw at you when you're in grade school and high school. They tell you that if you don't go to college you can't make it in life. What if you can't make it through college? What then? For the past year, I've been struggling to be on too of everything like how I use to. Having a high GPA of 3.8 was something I tried keeping until life happened. I always believed that I could handle many things as long as I didn't handle them alone. People believed in me and made me believe in myself. Unfortunately I let at all get into my head. I'm burned out! I've been strong for too long and I am tired. The worst part is that I don't think I've really gotten anything done. I've worked hard and forgot why I worked hard in the first place. I was more concerd about my professors approval than my own happiness. I lost sight of the passion that led me to why I started music in the first place.
I skipped two days of school because I don't want to get up to do the same thing I've been doing for the last 2 1/2 years. You think that's short? Everyone's different. For 2 years I've been giving 150% of my life and energy just to keep up. My work ethics were crazy good but I just crashed. There's nothing else I can do because my motivation was thrown out the window.
I've prayed a few times about it but I still don't know what else to do. . . No that's a lie I think I need to really part about this. I half ass everything I do now. It's not how I am. But for some reason I'm being content about it.
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