Let's face it, I can't keep up with a daily blog entry but I'll try to blog as much as I can.
Anyways, last time I wrote about how I wanted to be sure about being married to my fiance. I actually had to have a conversation with him about it. It was the hardest thing because I keep thinking that I don't want him or something. It's not even that, it's just I'm not always sure about anything in general. But I didn't want to treat him like he's just another choice that later on I'll change my mind. I know he was hurt. I ever meant to hurt him. But seeing him like that made me cry. I love him with all of me. That doesn't make sense but I don't care. He's everything to me and I'm so blessed to have him in my life. The moment he said "this is your choice then. I'm not going to push you anymore." My heart dropped like no tomorrow. I wanted him more than I ever thought. Relationships are about being there for each other, loving each other through their actions. All I want to do is love him. I want to show him that there is no one else and no where else I'd rather be but by his side.
You'd think that relationships are about the rainbows and sunshine but it's the storm that makes the rainbow even more beautiful.
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